Wednesday, January 1, 2014
A New Year
About three months ago he was diagnosed with cancer and I feel like my world is crashing in around me. Dennis will be starting radiation on the 7th of January and will go everyday for nine weeks. He has his little tattoos and his markers have been placed, we will walk through this together and I will be there for him in every way that he needs. When the Doctor called us at home to tell us he had cancer and it wasn't the good kind I felt like I couldn't breath and my heart actually hurt, the pain was incredible! Dennis is always there for me and he is not even worried, if someone asks him how he is feeling he will replay great. I say this to him every day "I wish I could be more like you". He has such a great outlook on life and there is never a problem, he is my rock and my love, I can't even think about life without him!
I have had a lot of people in my life die from cancer and I am scared to death that I will lose the love of my life, I can't even image life without him, I fear I would just curl up and die! Please send love and light to my Dennis to help us get through this, I believe is prayer and love, so please send us a lot of it the next three months as we walk down another path together.
Please do not post this on Facebook, I just need a place to vent and write. I don't have a lot of followers so I feel this is a safe place to vent and say what I am feeling. My followers are like my friends so I don't mind venting on my blog but I don't think I am ready for it to be all over Facebook yet.
I will be doing a lot of writing the next few months because I just need a place that I can write down how I am feeling and my fears and joys.
It is a few minutes until the new year and I am sending blessing to all my friends, may this year bring you much joy, happiness and contentment! My friends that are going through the fire also, I send you rain to put out the fire and my love to help carry you through it.