First Day Of Radiation

Here we are at Mission Hope in Santa Maria for my honeys first treatment.  He is doing wonderful as always as I silently fall apart inside.  Fear is an interesting thing it plays on so many different areas of your mind!  We are laughing and talking to each other they call him in and I go with him.  They say I can see where they are going to be doing the radiation, we walk in together and he hands me his glasses because he can't have any metal on him.  As he gets into the machine I can feel my heart start to hurt and squeeze tight, I tell him I love him give him a kiss and walk out to the waiting room.  As I walk out I start to cry because fear has taken a hold of me in a powerful way, what would I do without Dennis in my life, he is my best friend and the love of my life.  I would like to think that I am a strong woman but deep inside I know that Dennis is my strength.

I had many text messages from our friends and daughters this morning while we were at Mission Hope and I can't thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart!  Dennis and I feel very blessed to have such wonderful people in our life.  He told me the reason we opened the shop in Solvang was so we could meet the wonderful people we have in our life now, I think I will agree with him!

When he came out he said he didn't feel anything and didn't even know that they were doing radiation on him.  That is my man!  God let me be more like him!

We will be going at 3pm everyday now for his treatment for 9 weeks please send us a lot of prayers and love that will hold us up, maybe me more than Dennis because he is taking this much better than me.  We will see Dr. Ketting every Thursday to check in and he will be letting us know how things are going, I really like him and so does Dennis.  He talks to us like a real person and makes eye contact, he does not talk down to us he just talks with us.  He will answer questions more than once if you don't understand something and does not get up set, he takes his time with us and does not make us feel rushed, thank God for Dr. Ketting!

Well thank you for letting me vent and say how I am feeling!  This is going to be an interesting journey, well maybe more like a roller coaster ride and I don't like them!

Love, Kandra

PS, Perry thank you for being there for me my very dear friend!